Soft with Myself

Any time I am faced with adversity I ask myself if what I’m experiencing is trying to teach me. Is it patience? Is it kindness? Is it discipline?

While healing from our miscarriage, I’ve made it a point to really show up for myself mentally and emotionally. I’ve participated and completed a six week grief counseling program led by Hearts 2 Heal and Beyond the Happy, that gave me a space to just be. Being in a virtual setting with women who have experienced pregnancy/child loss helped me in a way I couldn’t have possibly imagined. I’m filled with gratitude.

The follow up to this therapy, because grief is a rollercoaster, is to meet with daily with Spiritual Sister and release the grief. This is new to me. I use my crystals faithfully, I meditate daily (word to Big Sean) and I am intentionally relaxing because overstimulation sends me into an intense space of anxiety that’s hard to come back from, I am trying every aspect of healing presented to me.

My next step will be intensive outpatient therapy. This is usually my last step of treatment before taking medication. It was very effective during my postpartum phases. 4-5 hours per day for 4 days a week. It truly forces me to look at the problem and create healthy coping mechanisms and heal my mental state.

The miscarriage has taught me gratitude and to feel all of my feelings when they arise. I can be happy and sad simultaneously without needing to chose an emotion. Being able to just be and being kind to myself. I challenge you to do the same. Be soft with yourself, heal yourself just for you, and take your time.